Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Affairs of the heart, pt. 2

art/photo cred:Dede

-Alright the powers that be, I did what I felt was best, jumped, took the risk, exposed feelings to Him1, and now we are just friends. How did THAT come to be.?!
-Still feel good about taking the risk though
-Dammit Cupid, lets get corny here, you know I would trade it all for Him1. keep that between you and I though.
-Is timing really everything? Probably. In most cases, this is true.
-Okay we can be friends, I'm going to take the mature, classy route, because I would rather have him in my life than not at all.
-However, to ensure some protection of heart, because now Him1 has a full knowledge(or close) of where I'm at, he will not be allowed to have his cake and eat it too.
 -Because, in the end, that'd only damage me, wouldn't it?

Yea, most likely. I got my eye on this. . . May be time to give somethingELSE, or a someoneELSE, a go.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Flowers Ova Snitches

 Gimme dat Gimme dat Augor. His work is so clever, makes me laugh. I promise I'll stop treating my shit here like a Tumblr, I know, I see right through myself on this one. Writings to come soon :)

Monday, October 19, 2009

Some Latin pin-up beauties. Found these and had to post 'em, gotta represent que no?! The bottom girl is my favorite.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Penelope Cruz, one of my fave 5 women to look to. Classy and has talent.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Eye Treat of the Day

un leon`! Titi Freak kills it again! I can't even begin to explain how much I admire his style, it's such a pleasure to look at. Seriously.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

affairs of the heart

Trust, it's such a big need in relationships of all sorts. You need trust between your home girls, you need it with your homies, you need it with family, it's simply just needed.

More important, it's necessary to trust one's self. If it isn't about anyone else, and all you got is yourself, you have to be able to trust yourself. Trust your judgement. Trust your decisions.

What happens when you break trust with yourself though? Where do you go from there?

About a year ago, as of November, that's exactly what I did. Always the solid, go-to me, undid all that was solid. I thought I was safe and ultimately I wasn't. I'm sorry if this is cryptic, but I don't care to elaborate right now.

Since then, I have questioned much of what I've done, my thoughts, my decisions, my interactions, the intentions of others, anything that could be questioned, is and was questioned. Don't hit me with the 'Well it's only natural to ask questions, to be unsure.' I don't want to hear that. I know that. But this lack of trust is myself has been on such a different level. And it deviated from a very dark and hurtful incident. But I've survived the incident, yo soy una sobreviviente. I constantly doodle that word, 'sobreviviente', or survivor, to remind myself of this.

Slowly but surely, with help, I've been able to build back my own trust. Being cautious, being aware, feeling right about doing this or that, no matter how significant or insignificant the matter was.

I'm taking a gamble right now, and I'm trying to trust myself that it's worth the risk. I can't lie though, I'm swaying on this one. I'm gambling with affairs of my heart. I don't want to test my heart if it isn't ready, but isn't time the essence of the matter? Or some shit like that?

So I'm either racing against my heart or against time. And I don't know what the fuck it's gonna be.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

3 C's

I'm no carhead by any means whatsoever, but I'm sure many of you will agree, when we like a car, we make a POINT to know what that car is. So let me present my top 3 choices, starting from the top. Above is a 1969 Chevelle, MMMM, let me tell you that car makes me salivate. All fixed up like that, you're guranteed to feel like a bad ass.
An 09 Chevy Camaro? Yes I'll take one of those too, that body is so smooth.

And last but far from least, the 2009 Dodge Challenger. It's got that re-vamped muscle car vibe to it, hell yea.

So Fairy Godmother, if you exist, and happen to read my blog religiously to get the updates on what I'm interested in and my life, drop one of these in my drive way with a note clearly labeled 'For Rio'. I happen to really need one of these cars. I'll take any of 'em. And let them have good gas mileage too, k? Thanks a million.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

a love letter via wall(s)

I stumbled on something new (to me) again and reading them makes me smile.

Love Letter is a mural arts project headed by Steve Powers and The Philadelphia Mural Arts program.
    It is literally a love letter painted between 63rd and 45th street on Market Street in Philly (You seen any of these walls D. love?)
       "The project encompasses 50 painted walls, a documentary film with scripted elements, a sign school and shop that will provide training for area youth and free signage for businesses on the market street corridor." -www.aloveletterforyou.com

Most art, graffiti, whatever, always has a message, whether it is blatantly visible or not. Not these walls though. I love the fact that these walls are delivering such a sweet message. I'd love if a guy delivered me a love letter on a wall, haha! There would be rewards for such creativity... ;)


Check it out my females. -rio